Saturday, December 31, 2011

China made

It darn right hurts. But it is darn right true as well. It's unavoidable really; being fake. Heck, I'm like that too at certain circumstances. Like when Mom is questioning whether I'm studying right about now. Hell yeah..I'm not. So yes, if I could be pulling a two-faced situation with my own mother, I'm pretty sure other people out there could be pulling the same trick too. On one another.

I wish I wasn't like that because I know how it feels being on the other side when people do not actually mean the nice things they say about me and it turns out that I am not really in their 'good' list. I would rather cry hearing the truth than smile at a lie. 

From the truth told, you actually made an effort to resolve conflicts and at the end, the chance of being worthy; to be a better person. If talk won't do it, force actions will. If force actions won't do're on your own. << got that from Interpersonal Comm classes. :D

All I know is everybody is probably made out of China. Sad truth but that is how the world is made.

We were trained to be two-faced as the words that we really wanna say may not fit the other person. We analyze our conversation early on before being said. But does that mean that this action should be done everytime? Sooner or later I'd lose sight of what is true and what is just China made.
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Memang tiada kerja this study leave. Asyik2 nak main aja..and of course it's at the end of the year. Time to fall sick. HACHOOOO!!

I got ma sexy hoarse voice on. Woo hoo~

Alhamdulillah I managed to stay on my text book more than 10 minutes. No guarantees that it'll remain in my head so looking through the text book once again is a crucial point. I felt like I highlighted most of the points in my text book. ALL OF THE SENTENCES SEEM TO BE IMPORTANT. Very deceiving. Why can't they have made a textbook filled with only the important points~? Save time for the authors too..

All I know is was a refreshing point to Skype with friends after brain mushing.

mmhhmm..kesian si Azry perlu layan karenah kita.
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Friday, December 30, 2011


I never ever want you to know this but occasionally I have that feeling where I am not suppose to feel.

It happens a lot.

But I hide it every single time.

I want to say.....but that just means that confession will give me away.

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Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Study Leave?

That's the thing about study leave.

You never actually study!!..It'll only come to you when a sudden EXAM truck runs over you. 

"I'll start in a minute."

End up Facebook/Blog/Youtube surfing.

"Imma get my text book and read it."

You go out and eat with your friends.

"Omaigoshh..I'm actually sitting at my desk, studying!!" *pat pat back*

5 mins after reading thesis/projects/portfolios/textbooks.

I have no idea why it is so easy to be manipulated by other needs. xD 

I guess other activities are just plain INTERESTING.

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Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Standing close

Unexplainable feelings start to come by whenever I'm alone. It happens when you have time all to yourself, you start to wonder about the things that have happened and the things that will come by you in the future. All I know is that I need someone to just stand by me right about now. I am not sad. Neither am I happy. The most essential thing for me is to be standing next to people that I need the most.

Nothing beats being a few inches away from the ones you love as you're contented enough to know that they're close by and you get all that warmth from just that one acknowledgement. Yearning does not make you a bad person. It just makes you normal. 

I can't help but thinking how far apart all of us are. I miss you guys so bad. I can't help but thinking are you eating around the same time I'm eating, sleeping around the time I'm onlining, laughing with friends while my heart is aching. Are you hurting while I'm smiling. That's the thing! xD I won't know when we're bergagillion miles apart. *pun intended*

Occasional messages that randomly informs me about you guys is good enough for me.
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Sunday, December 25, 2011


It's been awhile since I've listenened to Shania Twain but this song lah that is still fresh in my memory.

Bagaikan sup ayam baru keluar microwave~ NEW METAPHORE!

Anywhos, lagu ni suwiittt sangat.

"Look how far we've come my baby~"
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Thursday, December 22, 2011

Stand Cold

awwww~~ shoo tiut! But of course lah you don't want to be hugging with a stranger. Siapa mahu saya cakap?? No brainer.
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Thursday, December 15, 2011

AYU ayu~

AYU ma kering friend~~ xD I just love calling you that.

It felt real nice getting to see you again. It's been awhile hasn't it?? And yet we're in the same odd UiTM is. Tak bagi jenguk kawan. Alaaaaaaa...

You so semol dearie~ I feel like I can break you into pieces or the wind would just blow you away! Makan banyak sikit!! Regardless, you're still the same ol' gal that taught me loads of things in Asasi until now I guess. :) You took me under your wing before and I am eternally grateful. Every time I look at you, it is like we're back in Lekiu's room; just the three of us, you, atin and I sleeping on the floor together chatting til we sleep. The door barred with a chair to avoid strangers from coming in and taking..our blankets! I don't know why I used blankets. Sounds funnier.

Climbing out the window to hang our clothes and usually I'd use your bed to boost maself up the window. ^^ You helped crash my lock into pieces when I accidentally forgot the code. One of my frequent companions to eat dinner when we were roomates. Always helping me with my tudung-arrangements; I stared at the same facial expression whenever you put the tudung on. Mulut ternganga, mata ke atas; making sure it's neat. AHAHAHA!

It is nice to see you! I like the joy of running towards you from afar and you would reply back with an ecstatic wave. One hug and memories gush out. Awwww~

I miss you Ayu. We should hang some more kay? Insyaallah if the both of us get what we ask with your SUKSIS. Me with my kesatria..we'll be staying in one college! Awesome!
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Wednesday, December 14, 2011

No Happy?

Somehow~ in someway~

I despise seeing you happy. I have no idea why I feel like that. I have always been glad to see other people happy and enjoying life as it is. But you're an exception because somewhere in my small beating heart, I wish you would stop being happy. Masyaallah~ why are you like this Dae Iman?? Mak tak  ajar! 

EEEEEE~ that is why I'm re-setting my brain once more. Be happy. Stay happy when other people are happy. I should not feel like that towards a person but as humans, we cannot help but feel this and that. So we just have to suck it up and decide what is good and what is wrong. Bukannya that person did anything wrong pun..carik pasal pulak saya. *slaps cheek*

Keep steady Dae. :)

Have a break. Have a rm2.00 Kit Kat!

I know one thing that always make my day ever since I got it..

Staring at my personal slideshow aveli dei~

Such cute drawings and words from equally cute friends who I would not trade for anything else in this world. :')
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Friday, December 2, 2011

Da Fak

O.O Mata bagai nak juling; hadap laptop..hadap buku..hadap muka lecturer..bagai nak rak!!

None stop. There's always work. At first it was soo laid back~ classes were not heavy, no heavy duty assignments~ just as we reach the last two months, KAPOW!!! ada ja kerja that needs to be settled. I have not had enough sleep for the past few days. At the end of each day I worry about some assignments that needed to be settled. You no see that I'm exhausted, prof?? is my own fault. Some could actually be done on time if I have not procrastinate. I know that! It's just that I have no clue why I am so lazy~ I stall, I take it easy~ it's like nothing has kicked in so far. My daily activities are okay but when you no get enough sleep, it'll come back to haunt you. Today I have another test and shall be replacing my kawad at 4p.m~ yeayyyyyy..

Tomorrow!! Kawad! And I have to attend some stupid dinner that the seniors organized. ohhh~~ bila time2 utk bermesra, you guys rilek2 ja~ but when you need us to attend something that has to do with your grades, you beg..I paid cuz I felt sorry. Can I not go? =.=

The rest of the days would be to finish my whatever-ma-jiggy. sigh* Thank you UiTM for taking away my weekend. Saya redha~ Settle things now, can have leisure time later.

Very thankful for Efah and Atin for going through the pain with me and having OH's support from afar makes everything brighter. :D

Like Nike's slogan, "Just Do It". And I shall! I want my leisure time back beeches!
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