Monday, August 29, 2011

Balik Kampung~

It's 12.18 a.m already and here I am, laying down on my bed with my bag packed near my feet.

I am looking forward to go back to kampung! Hurrah! Dad might actually let me drive for once!

I love that I'm going back but HATE that I have to prepare so many things before leaving. The house needs to be maintained. Grandma's medical situation under control. Find a proper place for our cats to crash in. The extra cars needed to remove batteries~ *Just in case somebody steals them. BETTER NOT BEECH!* Shine every single know, the ones where we put all the snacks in. Fill the refridgerator with canned drinks. AND. pack bags.

It is never fun to do all of these things but hey! At least there will be less work once you get back from kampung.

I love the trip itself though. My bro and I loved to camp out in the car. We would bring pillows, stuffed toys, BLANKETS into the car and we'd snuggle up at the back. It's like a camping trip! IN YOUR OWN CAR. Too cool. This year will still be the same but Mum and Bro would be at the back. Imma be co-driver with my Dad. We'd switch from time to time.

Anyways, I would take pictures of our car 'bed' tomorrow so  that you'll get what I mean. :)

Selamat Hari Raya everyone. Drive safely on the road. Your loved ones are awaiting for your arrival.
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Sunday, August 28, 2011


A week to go til Degree starts and truth be told, I'm scared.

I'm frightened at the fact that I have to leave home again. To jump into this new world which I am certainly not prepared for. I've stalled everything that I need to do. Haven't paid the bill. Certificates that needed to be approved were set aside. I don't even bother with the upcoming schedule. It's not that I'm not up for it. I'm excited! But..there's just so many things that I know I have to leave behind. I'm not ready to let go.

I have to, right? I know I have to and I will. I'm just going to hang on til the last second.

Just lil itty bitty things that I'll be missing. Like dad's strange sleeping habits.

Brother's over exaggerated personality.

Mom's constant nagging *No picture for that*

But yeah..Imma just enjoy the time I have left.
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Thursday, August 25, 2011

Slang so funny!

Mummy sounds funny talking in Semenanjung slang!
Kihkihkih..too funny!!
Like mother,like daughter. I can't talk in semenanjung slang too~ =,=

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Converse Frenzy

I just had to go searching for Converse shoes. I cannot believe what a big collection Converse is. Can you imagine there are so many other cuttings and collections I do not know about?? Except for the basic ones lah. But FUHHHH..certainly made my eyes pop out of their sockets. Shoe-gasm as we might say it.

The ones that I found were all from the 2010 collection.

This first one is an All Star blabla..I think the material is rubbery, instead of the regular 'kain' ones. O.O

These are from the Chuck Taylor's Cup Fall/Winter collection. Yeap. Real bright!

These 3 selections are the Japan collection. I guess that's why we don't see them over here in Malaysia. It must be hard to get through customs. All of them I mean. But WOW. When you think they're out of ideas, suddenly WHAM! slaps us right in the face with these gorgeous creations.

I could have browsed for more but that'll just put me in a slump because I know I can't own all of them!!!

Pretty cool.

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Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Asking real politely

I know it's Ramadhan time. We have to be super patient and not blow our heads off so very often but I need to do this once.

I'm asking you now, in a very polite keep it quiet.

I couldn't care less about what you are doing right now NOR do I care for your insanely over blown emotions. It is ridiculous and you look less like a smart person. *stupid* We have to learn to keep everything mediocre here..

I am so sorry if I offended you. But I meant it in that way. You're suppose to feel offended.

But of course I can never have the heart to actually offend anyone. Those are the words that I would say if I have no soul. Huh. Would be interesting though to actually say them.
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Tuesday, August 23, 2011


Tell me your hopes and dreams. What color you like. What makes you happy. What are you allergic to.  Which ice-cream you prefer. Who broke your heart before. When was your first achievement. When was the day you felt that the whole world collapse right in front of you. 

What you think of me.

I would like to know things that I can relate to. I love blue. I believe that the stars in the sky consists of wishes people make. I prefer having ice-cream cones than the ones on stick. I sing in the showers. I enjoy company, always. I hardly get scars because I am afraid of blood and being hurt. I am a teacher's pet. I have fear of heights.

I don't mind letting my guard down. I want to be able to tell you things about me just like I want to know more about you. 

It's called a DEEPER CONVERSATION. :) 
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Monday, August 22, 2011


The definition of Perfect.

Entirely without any flaws, defects, or shortcomings. To describe a perfect  human being is like saying he/she has looks, brains, riches, loved by all and all around goodie-too-shoes.

When I was young, heck. I still do it! All those things I saw were reflected in the people who I assumed were perfect. I envied them, wishing I was more like them. From a distance I watched perfect people..practically thinking that "Wow..they are so perfect that they're glowing!" But you can never say that someone's perfect. Because nobody is.

Allah has made us to be DIFFERENT, not perfect little angels sent to Earth. If we were all perfect, we would all look alike, think alike and dress alike. That wouldn't make us unique at all. It is expected for us to make mistakes. We tumble over, hurt people's feelings, crash into someone else's car and fail in examinations. Many more mistakes! *Don't think I can mention it all in here. It'll be the longest list.*

I have learned a lot by this. I can't just assume that someone is perfect. Not only it is undermining myself but I'm also putting pressure on that individual. Imagine that you are expected to do everything right. That'll be horrible! 

I appreciate people for who they are, not for what I want them to be. 

So I appreciate myself for being the nut job that I am.

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Sunday, August 21, 2011

20th Anniversary

Parents' Anniversary! Dated 17th August 1991.

This was taken during one of their dates where my mum taught my dad how to drive a car. That's right. Their dates were driving lessons.

Now. Here they are. A lil older but still the same happy people I know.

Of all the years they have been together, I have never once see them upset at each other. The occasional complaints from mum about dad's forgetfulness was normal. The groans dad give whenever he is asked to do errands for mum. But they compromised and made it work. Mum made a strategic placing for dad to keep his stuff and dad makes sure he keeps a smile on his face when he does the errands.

To me, they're the complete opposites of one another. Mum is more to the wild side. She's free spirited and has the mind of a teenager at times. Dad is more laid back and hardly ever loses his temper. The wise one as you might say. My parents are the greatest example for the term 'opposites attract'.

I have learned a lot from my parents. They have brought me up to live life yet at the same time appreciate things around me. They sacrificed a lot for my brother and I which I am eternally grateful for. When I look at them, I see true love. I hope that someday I'll be blessed with the same commitment.

Mum and Dad, Hoping that the love that you shared years ago is still as strong today as it was then, bringing you much joy, love and happiness to celebrate again. Happy Anniversary.

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Friday, August 19, 2011

EHEM..buat Aunty Wan Som

Macam random saja. But what the heck!

To Aunty Wan Som,

It is apparently your birthday today! HURRAH! Happy 21st Birthday!! Setahun, hanya sekali..merayakan hari yang mulia ini~ << Adapted from Lagu Raya. 

I didn't really get the chance to get to know you better but my 3 days in Johor Bahru were enough. Thank you for bringing me into your home and make me feel welcome. I wish I thanked you more in the past but I'll just turn into a stone and no words will come out. =,=

AAAAAAA...anyway! I had a whole speech planned out but now I have no idea what to write. Since I lost my words, I shall go to plan B. GOOGLE.

There are Aunts that are boring
That are Aunts that are dull
There are Aunts that don’t care
About much of anything at all
But that’s not you Aunty
You’re exciting caring and great fun too
A Great Big Happy Birthday.

The beauty of Google!  You're great. Funny too! I think I cracked my funny bone too often over there. So yeah. I see your kids have follow suit. Bwahahaha! I am truly blessed to have met you and the family. Hope to see you soon. Have a prosperous life and May Allah Bless you.

p.s I don't mind if you don't read this. I just felt like doing it. :D
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Thursday, August 18, 2011



I swear..sometimes..I feel like stuffing noisy eaters' mouths til they choke. It may sound cruel but I can't help it~

In my own family, I have my set of noisy eaters. Dad. Cousin. Always, I want to pull my hair out just listening to the munching and noisy slurping and..AND heavy breathing. PLEASE LAH..keep it shut.

I'm astonished that baru know I feel so pissed off. Before this, I was not that bothered by the chomping sounds and whatnot. Maybe it's Puasa time. I guess that explains it all.

And I'm always more agitated in during Sahur. I'm sleepy and I have to wake up at 4 a.m. Who wouldn't be grumpy?? I have discovered ways of holding in my anger though.

1. Face a wall when I eat. I don't know how this helps but it distracts me.
2. Clench my fist really I'm trying to squeeze out water from the air.
3. Close my eyes and talk to myself.

That is why I fix myself to not eat noisily in front of anyone because they might be as annoyed as I am. No more slurping tea. No open mouth eating. No noise means peace. I like it that way.

Somehow I think this agitation of mine has made me more lady-like when I eat. CHE WAH.
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Monday, August 15, 2011

I like Hugs

Hugs. The one word that I can relate to. Pasal apa?? Because it is probably the most easiest and sweetest gesture that could be done among family and friends.

I've always used hugs as a sign that I love the people around me. The 'ones' that I can hug that is. I don't know. Not many people can relate to hugs. Some are afraid of touch. Some are just hug-a-phobic. I've met those hug-a-phobic people. It brings me utmost pleasure to sneak attack one on them. They'll yell like lil babies. AHAHAHAHA! But once I've hugged, you'll be sure that I'll do it again. No worries though. Those friends have gotten use to my hugs. But they stay very still. It's funny to look at.

Why hugs? Why not do cheesy handshakes where you grab each other's hand and pull them close? Well..that's like a hug too!! Hugs are warm..When you hug someone, there is no gap between you and the hug receiver. Just that close embrace saying "I appreciate you." I'd like to think of it as two people being a WHOLE. Gawwwsshhh..I wish I could give free hugs like how the Americans do it. But'll be all wrong. People in Malaysia will just give you odd stares and hit you with pepper spray! << Safety precautions apparently.

To those in particular, Imma hug you as soon as I see you. ^^
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Happy 50TH Birthday Uncle Dibid

Yeahh..that's him at the back. Already half a century old. Anyway, turns out 50 is the young of the old. << that does not makes sense.

We've been taking self pictures all night long. pulling faces and whatnot. Certainly a night to remember. With the exception of Chong Wei's loss. *punches wall*

Dear Uncle Dibid,

You're 50 now. Half a century old. But still look like a 25 year old~ nahhh..late 30's lah. xD Anywho, I am absolutely grateful to have an uncle such as yourself. You'r funny, tech crazy, loud (just like mom) but at times pretty stern. But that makes you YOU. Mom is behind you by 3 years so we shall be celebrating her half a century birthday soon too! 

May you live a long prosperous life. Filled with love, joy and riches.(?) 50 is just a number. It gets better and better every year. HUAHAHAHA!

May God Bless you Uncle. I love you. Thanks for making me a part of your growing old agenda.

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Friday, August 12, 2011

You may not see this. I'm frowning. You may not know this. I'm hurting.

I want to tell myself, "No. You shouldn't be like this."

But I can't. Somehow that seems idiotic. =,=

That's just it. I can't lie to myself. If only I could.

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Thursday, August 11, 2011

Gone YouTube Crazy

My eyes are all annoyed.  My head's pounding. My palms are all warm from the laptop heat. That just settles it. I've been watching YouTube videos the whole day. Say WHUT NOW??

Yes yes..the life of a NO LIFE girl. Pffffttt..I had loads of fun, mind you!! I got to know most of my friend's account on YouTube; which is Beyond Awesome. Caught up with the latest videos which I have subscribed to like NigaHiga, WongFu Productions, David Choi, Smosh, MAT LUTHFI (Malaysian weiii...) and etc.

It's not healthy though. Laying on my back all day, having headphones on. I tend to get lost in the video watching fishionado but hey..I won't be able to do this in the future yawww..When you're in Degree, you no have fast Wifi. Exciting stuff, university life. Sigh~~~

Anymeat, I got the urge to start making videos too! But..I don't really have ideas that I think is worthy enough to be shown on the Web yet. I gotta start pulling my brain juices out. Weeee~ sounds gross but trust me. Worth it.

All this Web browsing is giving me a headache. Ughhhhh.

Imma put a picture of baby Mason to ease my headache.

AWWWWW~ all better.

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Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Accent Challenge

I had fun!! :D 

Thank you Nur Syazana for introducing it to us and Saiful Hakim for pointing out the challenge.

It feels pretty cool listening to myself babble. Ohohohoho~

I enjoyed listening to Nana's and Saif's as well! Their answers are just too adorable~~ AWWWW.

OK. That's it. Slamat Berbuka Puasa people!
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Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Biasiswa Gone Wrong

Hokay..tried my hand at filling up the forms on my own. I'm a grown adult.

Super girl!

Anywho, the personal details were alright because it's about myself. Shouldn't be hard.

THEN, parent's info. Bleghhhh..I especially hate this part because I have to refer to my parents and usually they're in a daze. In another dimension..When it comes to I.C and office numbers, it's okay. Easy part. The income part is difficult as it involves numbers and they don't exactly know how much they earn. So I let them predict the closest number. I can always fix it again."Kemas kini" as we shall say it.

CLICKED DONE. *Pat myself on the back*

Next thing you know, I wanted to fix it. Went back to that page. Clicked on the scholarship link.

Nothing happened. Clicked it again. And again, NOTHING.

"Sedang diproses."


Oh least I tried.
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Monday, August 8, 2011

70th POST

Say whut now?? So fast..felt like it was not that long ago I hesitated to write in a blog. Huh. A small accomplishment. FUHHHHH..

...I have no idea what to write about. Brain juices ain't working.

It rained today!! (Nothing to be excited about..nature)

OH OH! I do have something in as I strolled around the supermarket with brother dearest, I saw one of the minister with her husband. Who's also my neighbour. Hairdo done up in a high bun, scarf half covering her head (Datin style), dressed in formal baju kurung. Husband with his crisp white shirt and grey pants. <<-Mind you..he's shorter than her. xD

ANYWAYS! The moment they stepped out of the car, they locked their hands together. Like this =

And swing them together back and forth regardless of who staring. The moment I saw that I was like "AWWWWWWW~~"

They're not exactly young which makes it an even more "AWWWW" moment.

D. Fatimah

D. Adi

That just proves that love lasts, in the cutest way too. Seeing couples like this just makes my heart melt. I wish I'd have a husband that I can grow old with who won't hesitate to grip my hand in public. ^^

"I don't care how old we get..You're my husband so we should hold hands in public."

Is that too much to ask? AHAHAHA!

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Sunday, August 7, 2011

Toughening up

As a girl, I can be an emotional wreck at times. That is pretty normal for females. Yet we (girls) try our very best to cover up how we really feel. All our efforts will always come crashing down. Not only to ourselves but also to those who we're trying to hide from.

How I wish I had a heart made out of steel; so that I'll never be able to feel sadness or anguish. To keep a smile on my face regardless of the heart ache. To stop myself from turning away from everybody who cared. To end the tears streaming down my face.

I hate myself for being too easy. Even the smallest thing can turn my mood into a slump. An old picture. Grazing a stuffed teddy bear dusting away in the corner. Rain..when the cold breeze hits your face. A sad song, singing out melodious tunes which resembles certain situations in life.

In life, we crash into dilemmas that we wish wouldn't happen to us. Dilemmas that could bring everything to a screeching halt. But without dilemmas, we wouldn't learn from mistakes. We won't take things into different perspectives. We wouldn't appreciate what we have. It's like history. What wrong doings that happened in the past, should not be repeated again.

I have felt my heart being ripped out countless of times. I have shed so many tears. I have slid away from loved ones. We're allowed to be in a slump but not too long til it deteriorates us. Pick yourself up and walk away from all the rubbish, your head held up high.

Regrets and mistakes, they are memories made.
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Sekaip so convenient to keep in touch with loved ones. I AM SO IN LOVE WITH SEKAIP!! Even if it likes to  disconnect plenty of times. Loves to blur our vision from seeing the other person from the other line. Absolutely indulges in the fact it can make us sound like robots; impossible to catch the other's speech. =,=

But when you put aside all the bad side effects, it's a wonderful thing~ On a good day, it's even better!!

It's like a phone call with moving images. xD

I had a wonderful 2-hour talk with you luvie. Looking forward to the next session. Kalau boleh skype every night kan best?? Boleh lah tengok muka slalu. AHAHAHAHA! But then that just proves that we're lifeless people. Pfftttt..

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Friday, August 5, 2011

Baby Jitters

It's Friday~~ <<- I just had to put that in.

I went to my Uncle's house today as my brother had to take his shower before going off to tuition. I pity him..Though he may be sitting during the whole session, it sure is tiring as you're still wrecking your brain. Not to mention there's no break. COBAAN~ darn. Went off topic. Oh yeah! Stopped by Uncle's house and our distant relatives had come to visit. My cousin brought his two sons. One is 6 years old and the other just 5 months old.

I have a serious case of baby phobia. I have no idea why. I just feel that babies and I don't mix. Don't get me wrong. Babies are soooo adorable but the part that scares me is when they start to cry. Right when I lay hands on them. So in my mind I'm thinking.."I make babies cry." So that explains it!

Cousin : Do you want to hold the baby?
Me :'s alright! I don't know how. 
Cousin : It'll be fine. NAH. *thrust the baby into my hands*

He was a very chubby baby. Cheeks so red and bouncy. Eyes the size of marbles. 

It was awkward at first. I just stared at him while holding him at a distance. I was waiting for the cry so that I can hand him back to his dad but alas, he smiled instead. From that moment on, my heart melt. He didn't cry!! He laughed when I bounced him up and down while at the same time gazing at me. I think he wanted to play with my specs. =,=

Right before I hand him back to his dad, he grasped my finger really hard. SO CUTE! That is what all babies do. They like to hang on to your finger. Small gesture, big impact.

I never thought I'd see the day when there's this one baby who did not cry, being in my presence. OH! So blissfully happy today! 
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Thursday, August 4, 2011

Why So Odd?

It's just a regular day yet I feel somewhat uncomfortable. Huh.

Heavy heart and such. This is not spose to happen. Like something's bothering me but I can't put my finger on it. Must be something in the air that's getting to me. *Spray cologne to make it smell better* Perfume waster!! =,=

I need to start wasting my time by going out with friends, start watching movies in cinemas or get a beverage at a cafe. But naahhhh..that's a lot of work. Might as well stay at home and rot on the floor. Besides, those things are meant to be shared with dearies. Back here, they're all busy with their stuff so I don't have any intention to intrude. Not to mention it's fasting season. Crazy maw keluar around this time!!

A month more to go till degree. I have this awful feeling in my guts. A whole bunch of butterflies. I have one wish that I know would never happen. Like having OH close by; where distance is not an issue. But hey, life usually presents difficulties at first. After that, it's up to our own efforts to make everything work. :)

This is starting to go off topic. HAIYA!! Sorry, my mind's in a jumble. Can't get anything straight when you're fasting. I should start on something to get my brain juices working!! Fo sho I'll get something done. 
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Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Tea Issued

Tengah mamai during sahur time; an odd conversation happened between Dad and I.

Me : Dad, you like drinking tea or coffee?
Dad : I prefer coffee but now I'm trying to cut down. It can cause migraines you know? *serious face*
Me : OH! really? That's bad. Anywho, what is tea good for?
Dad : Untuk menenangkan diri, mengekalkan kulit yang cantik~~
Me : *Cuts in* For me, it makes me POOP.
Dad : EEEEEEE..why do you have to say that? Now i have no appetite!
Me : *Laughs hysterically* You're done already.
Dad : No! I haven't finish my egg. Haiya..

Daddy~ Daddy~ xD

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Monday, August 1, 2011

Mencik Nembiak Laki

Mun kamek manas, nang mek nulis lam bahasa Sarawak. Besalah nak..sak orang sik tauk gilak apa yang dipadah kita.

Tok lah molah mek manas!! Sakit ati na kamek ngan orang yang sik kenal dirik. Men-men jak ngan sidak empuan; suka na nak tarit tali. Perasan dirik sendiri. Nangga nya slalu plente ngan nempuan, sapa mok ngan nya mun kedak ya?? 

Mek mok bego pun kelak nya perasan. Sial. Mok mek tampar nya bena2. Sak sedar!!

Merinsak na laki kedak tok. Cobalah cermin dirik kitak ya. Dolok nieda kedak ya. 

Kinek tok makin lahhhh..Berolah alu. Tolonglah~ Insaf gik eh. Sik bait kitak molah camya. Napuk lah dirik kitak yang sejaik ya.

Dah. Abis dah ranting.
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